When You Stop Running From Yourself, Everything Changes

There’s a point in your journey where you’ve done the inner work — walked through fire, faced your shadows, and stripped away everything false.

And here’s the truth: it hurts like hell.

Death and rebirth feels like having your heart ripped from your chest while your body aches, your soul shatters into a million pieces, and you’re left suffocating, wondering when it will finally stop. And still — I would choose this kind of pain over staying stagnant and stuck in a life that was never truly mine.

But if you allow yourself to sit with it — to feel it, to let it pass — it brings light. Each time those emotions return, they hold less power. They no longer own you.

This is the part most people run from. But it’s the exact part that reshapes you.

Because once you walk through that, you move into The Becoming. You start seeing flashes of a bigger life, and eventually you step forward. You fail. Over and over. But here’s what I’ve learned: the longer you wait, the more you fail, the bigger the blessing. The seeds you water in the dark? They always come back ten times bigger than you imagined.

And then it happens. Alignment clicks. Doors open. What you prayed for begins to rise. And it feels like freedom.

I walk taller now. Straighter. I feel sexy in my own skin. I enter spaces not to take, but to give. A smile. Energy. Presence. I walk in already whole.

You start to embody the words: What feeling am I after? What are my intentions? And one day, it clicks. You just know. Your desires are already yours.

That’s when accountability shows up. You stop blaming. You own your actions, even the shameful ones. Yes, I did that. I acted from pain. Now I know why. You apologize where you need to. You stop reacting. You have real conversations.

And with that honesty comes freedom in your voice. You stop overthinking how people will take it. Everything you say is intentional, rooted in love, aligned with truth. Some will misunderstand, some will judge — but the ones who simply let your words land? Those are your people.

You also stop seeing life through illusions. Status, looks, titles, popularity — none of it matters. You see people for their energy. And when a relationship no longer feels healthy, you don’t cling just because of history. We all change. Not everyone is meant to walk every chapter with you.

And it humbles you. Every single time.

I had to be humbled before I could ever receive. I had to sit in the deepest pain and whisper to myself: Becky, you’ve got this. Breathe.

Now I live in a space of giving. I see the beauty in the smallest things. My love runs deeper, my senses sharper, my spirituality heightened.

And here’s what I want you to know: this isn’t just for me. It’s for you. It’s for everyone.

The gold is in your pain. Your pain holds all your answers. You have to stop running from yourself.

This is what it feels like when the inner work finally pays off.